I'm feeling so lethargic lately. Part of that is I only worked out last Tuesday and this Tuesday. There's been a lot of snags in the way between Brandy (my workout buddy) having sick kiddos & husband at home this past week, and me having a lot going on, and me being apparently unable to push myself to go alone. Last Tuesday was with Brandy and this Tuesday I walked with Ian.
Now of course i'm being blessed with mother nature's monthly gift... so i have no energy at all. My walk Tuesday was ont he verge of impossible even though I only went for 30 mins. Today I'll at least get activity from all the errands I have to run...take care of the kittens... post office... huge grocery shop. But I think true exercise will be on the backburner until at least Sunday.
I'm really hoping that this coming week when I feel all better and Brandy's family feels all better, I can work out SO much more. Cuz right now all I want is to eat chocolate. :-/
Thursday, October 30, 2008
Thursday, October 23, 2008
Exercise This Week
I got a good workout on Tuesday - elliptical and track. Yay for Brandy going with me! That's it for this week though so far. Things have just been all over the place. Today won't happen either. The guy to work on the downstairs bathroom will be here shortly, and then I have to go shopping for an interview outfit (get to that in a moment), and then my dad is coming over to do the last bit of painting in the bathroom. He'll probably be here til right before Ian comes home, and Ian and I have massage appointments tonight at 7. So yeah, busy day.
I am hoping to work out with Brandy tomorrow sometime between 2:30-5. Tomorrow night I'll be with Kellie and Cori, spending some time with Kellie before her big trip. She's going on a 2 week trip to 9 countries which she is leaving for on Sunday. We might be sending Waddles with her so he can be even more well-traveled!
I am hoping to work out with Brandy tomorrow sometime between 2:30-5. Tomorrow night I'll be with Kellie and Cori, spending some time with Kellie before her big trip. She's going on a 2 week trip to 9 countries which she is leaving for on Sunday. We might be sending Waddles with her so he can be even more well-traveled!
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Happy Developments
I already wrote about some of this on my other blog, but Friday night we got 3 hours of exercise! We had a huge geocaching extravaganza that was a lot of fun but super exhausting, after having already gone for an hour walk prior to that. Then we went back Saturday morning and walked another 30 minutes or so to finish off. We found the cache right away and then mostly walked around trying to figure out why we were so confused. You can read about it and see pictures here.
Here's why I'm so happy... despite all the complaining and friction, at the end of the week Ian had exercised on 4 days. And 3 of them were with me. That is all I could ever hope for!! So maybe it won't be SO difficult to get him going after all. He did still complain, but he did it, and that's what matters.
Saturday we even got a little bit more exercise - about another half hour of walking when we were finding the geocache and retracing our steps to figure out all the confusion. And of course grocery shopping, which is tough work too :)
I'm planning on working out at the rec center with Brandy today, in about 2 hours. Just 2 days off and I'm feeling antsy! That's a good sign, right?
Here's why I'm so happy... despite all the complaining and friction, at the end of the week Ian had exercised on 4 days. And 3 of them were with me. That is all I could ever hope for!! So maybe it won't be SO difficult to get him going after all. He did still complain, but he did it, and that's what matters.
Saturday we even got a little bit more exercise - about another half hour of walking when we were finding the geocache and retracing our steps to figure out all the confusion. And of course grocery shopping, which is tough work too :)
I'm planning on working out at the rec center with Brandy today, in about 2 hours. Just 2 days off and I'm feeling antsy! That's a good sign, right?
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
Yesterday :)
Yesterday was laundry day, which is also the day I try to go the rec center by my parents house. Kellie wasn't able to join me again, as she had schoolwork to do, so it was just me. But guess what... Ian went with me!!!!!!!!! He really didn't want to but he knew he needed to, so instead of my convincing him, he was doing the work of convincing himself. That took a lot of weight off my shoulders. It's nice not to feel like I'm forcing him.
What he did was eat while working (tuesday is work from home day), and then on his hour lunch break we went to the rec center. He walked around the track while I did the arc trainer. I think he walked about a mile or so. I did 35 mins on the arc trainer, intervals level 1. It kicked my butt, in a good way though :) The incline parts were so hard. But it was so nice seeing Ian going around the track as I exercised. He may not have been pushing himself like I was, but he was THERE. That's huge progress because it has been so very long since he exercised. He told me afterward that he wanted to stop after the first couple minutes, and then a few minutes later, and then a few minutes later, lol. His biggest weakness really is his legs. I've said this before but for me, my legs can go forever and it's my (lack of ) cardiovascular endurance that makes me wear out. For him, his legs wear out far before his cardiovascular endurance becomes an issue. But you know he was so tired afterward that on one hand it makes him not want to do it, but of course on the other hand makes him realize that he NEEDS to. I said, now what if this were Italy and you walked for 30 minutes and were too tired to see anything else all day? That would suck! He totally gets it.
I hope we can continue to do this on Tuesdays, and if Kellie can come great and if not I'll have my Ian. And I really want us to get some fitness stuff for the Wii, like the Wii Fit and Dance Revolution and things like that. They are just expensive.
Anyway I felt so happy to have him join me. After he finished work, we had soup and salad at Panera Bread and it really hit the spot! Good food tastes so good when you've worked so hard.
Today I'll be walking with Brandy around 3pm, so looking forward to that. So far she's been really consistent and not cancelled on me except for Sunday, but the weather was terrible (40 degrees, rainy, dark) and her son was really sick.
What he did was eat while working (tuesday is work from home day), and then on his hour lunch break we went to the rec center. He walked around the track while I did the arc trainer. I think he walked about a mile or so. I did 35 mins on the arc trainer, intervals level 1. It kicked my butt, in a good way though :) The incline parts were so hard. But it was so nice seeing Ian going around the track as I exercised. He may not have been pushing himself like I was, but he was THERE. That's huge progress because it has been so very long since he exercised. He told me afterward that he wanted to stop after the first couple minutes, and then a few minutes later, and then a few minutes later, lol. His biggest weakness really is his legs. I've said this before but for me, my legs can go forever and it's my (lack of ) cardiovascular endurance that makes me wear out. For him, his legs wear out far before his cardiovascular endurance becomes an issue. But you know he was so tired afterward that on one hand it makes him not want to do it, but of course on the other hand makes him realize that he NEEDS to. I said, now what if this were Italy and you walked for 30 minutes and were too tired to see anything else all day? That would suck! He totally gets it.
I hope we can continue to do this on Tuesdays, and if Kellie can come great and if not I'll have my Ian. And I really want us to get some fitness stuff for the Wii, like the Wii Fit and Dance Revolution and things like that. They are just expensive.
Anyway I felt so happy to have him join me. After he finished work, we had soup and salad at Panera Bread and it really hit the spot! Good food tastes so good when you've worked so hard.
Today I'll be walking with Brandy around 3pm, so looking forward to that. So far she's been really consistent and not cancelled on me except for Sunday, but the weather was terrible (40 degrees, rainy, dark) and her son was really sick.
Pushing
I have to really push myself to work out. I fight and fight myself. Today I wanted to cancel on Brandy up to the last second. BUT... I went. That's what matters right? And we are going tomorrow, too! I feel so good about myself for making the effort.
I really wish my stupid heel wasn't such a problem. Besides my foot pain I still deal with a bit of a bone spur on my heel. I had surgery to remove the bone spur back in 2003 I think, but they didn't do a very thorough job and I still have a bit of a bump that just rubs and rubs against the back of my shoe no matter how tight I tie my shoe. Bandaids come off... does anyone have a good suggestion for this???? Those blister bandaids don't work because they're so thin. For non-protruding things they work but for a protruding bump like this it doesn't stop it from blistering. HELP!
Anyway we had a really good walk. I am chatting online with Brandy now and she has the Wii Fit so I was asking her about it. The only problem is it records your weight and you MUST look at it - and I know myself and know I cannot see my weight right now, at least not in these beginning stages. Maybe later one. Right now I need to focus on exercise for how it benefits me and ignore my weight so that it does not become the point. Brandy and I were talking about that and she's managed to get past that. Here are some great things she said:
"It's just a game, I dont care anymore, I think I got to the point were I went completely crazy about the number and lost it and then came back to reality and realized I didn't care anymore as long as I could go outside and have fun without dying and feel healthy. I dont care I just want to feel good and my weight isn't important because the girls on the cover of magazines are not typical, that is society's image, not mine and my family doesn't care as long as I can have fun with them...so I focus on becoming healthy and feeling good."
This is exactly the point behind Intuitive Eating and rejecting the diet mentality.
I told Ian my feet hurt and he wanted to do something nice for me. I couldn't think of anything. So I told him what would make me happiest is if he went for a walk or got some activity tonight even though his legs are tired from yesterday's walk. And he said he will after dinner tonight! He is being so sweet. I feel so happy :)
I really wish my stupid heel wasn't such a problem. Besides my foot pain I still deal with a bit of a bone spur on my heel. I had surgery to remove the bone spur back in 2003 I think, but they didn't do a very thorough job and I still have a bit of a bump that just rubs and rubs against the back of my shoe no matter how tight I tie my shoe. Bandaids come off... does anyone have a good suggestion for this???? Those blister bandaids don't work because they're so thin. For non-protruding things they work but for a protruding bump like this it doesn't stop it from blistering. HELP!
Anyway we had a really good walk. I am chatting online with Brandy now and she has the Wii Fit so I was asking her about it. The only problem is it records your weight and you MUST look at it - and I know myself and know I cannot see my weight right now, at least not in these beginning stages. Maybe later one. Right now I need to focus on exercise for how it benefits me and ignore my weight so that it does not become the point. Brandy and I were talking about that and she's managed to get past that. Here are some great things she said:
"It's just a game, I dont care anymore, I think I got to the point were I went completely crazy about the number and lost it and then came back to reality and realized I didn't care anymore as long as I could go outside and have fun without dying and feel healthy. I dont care I just want to feel good and my weight isn't important because the girls on the cover of magazines are not typical, that is society's image, not mine and my family doesn't care as long as I can have fun with them...so I focus on becoming healthy and feeling good."
This is exactly the point behind Intuitive Eating and rejecting the diet mentality.
I told Ian my feet hurt and he wanted to do something nice for me. I couldn't think of anything. So I told him what would make me happiest is if he went for a walk or got some activity tonight even though his legs are tired from yesterday's walk. And he said he will after dinner tonight! He is being so sweet. I feel so happy :)
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
Workouts, Leftovers and Renovations.... Oh, My!
I think the engagement photo session went well on Saturday! I can't wait to see the result. Ian wasn't really "into" it because he is feeling so bad about how he looks so he doesn't like being in pictures right now. I don't really have that hangup because my weight has fluctuated so much over the years and I'd feel terrible if I had no photos because of my weight. Although I obviously want to work on myself, I am so not in that self-hate mode anymore like he is. You know this whole body image/ body acceptance things is so geared toward women but men are affected too, like my honey. I hope I can teach him to love himself :)
Still doing pretty good on my workouts. Even Saturday turned out to be some work when we went for our photos! We were in the mountains and had to hike uphill a little several times and I was breathing hard!
Yesterday (Tuesday) was supposed to be my workout day with Kellie, but she ended up going to the zoo with her sister & niece & nephew.. I wasn't mad at her whatsoever,but I knew things would come up and I can't count on a workout partner to be there every time. This is why the more workout buddies I have, the better! So I went over my parents house for laundry day - with Ian (yay! he got his work from home day back!)... and I planned to go to the rec center. I was letting my breakfast settle and planning to go work out before I ate lunch. Then it happened... the laziness set in. I started to rationalize in my head all the reasons why I didn't really have to go. In desperation I asked my dad if he would go with me... but he had already exercised in the morning. I even thought to myself "crap, I bet I won't go now. I suck." Then my dad made a comment about going out to run some errands... and I totally jumped on it. I said "Dad will you drop me off at the gym on your way?" Of course I didn't really need him to take me, but I knew it was the only way I was going to get there. He dropped me off and I told him to pick me up 40 mins later.
I spent 30 mins on the arc trainer, fighting the whole time. These workouts are so hard for me now. They used to be easy! That's what I care about, ya know? Not my weight or how I look, but being able to function well, do these workouts... because that means I can do things in the real world like hike, bike, walk, travel... without it being miserable. After the arc trainer I walked around the track 3 times. Not a huge workout, but it was very good for me.
Today I'm working out with Brandy, going for a walk at 2:30. Hopefully I can last an hour again :) If not that's ok too. My calves are sore from yesterday.
My Ian is gone for 3 days :( He's in Arizona on a business trip. He had to leave at 5:30 am today. I couldn't really fall back asleep because it wasn't warm and snuggly in my bed anymore! So that's why I'm blogging early. I hope I can go back to sleep soon. I'm watching the Biggest Loser which for some reason always makes me hungry! Maybe I just know how little calories they eat :) I just saw an arby's commercial and oh how badly I want a roast beef sandwich! At 7 am! LOL. I think I'll go for my leftover omlette instead.
Which brings me to something else I wanted to talk about... LEFTOVERS! I have noticed lately that leftovers - both from restaurants and from stuff made at home - are piling up in the fridge. I may not eat all of them, and that's ok! What this means is that I am actually doing good with Intuitive Eating again, at least when it comes to listening to my fullness. I didn't really think about it but for a long time now I finished almost everything I ever eat... and if I don't, there's only a tiny bit left, not enough to save. So Ian kind of made the point that hey - there's all these little white boxes and tupperware in the fridge! The last 3 days I've been living off of leftovers. It's pretty awesome to think hey, I am eating that much less. And I don't feel remotely like I'm on a diet or I can't eat certain foods. Just watching the portions and stopping when I'm full.
I really want to do some more fun blog entries with pictures and stuff! I hope tomorrow I'll have some time. Today I have to clean things up in the bathroom and empty out the cabinets that we have to move to paint. After my walk with Brandy, my dad's coming over so we can start working on the ceiling & walls in there. I'm hoping this morning I can go shop for the shower curtain and accessories I want, so I can pick out the paint color. Time to start these renovations! If I'm lucky we can get a lot done today and tomorrow so Ian will come home to a brand new bathroom. I'll take before/after pics :)
Still doing pretty good on my workouts. Even Saturday turned out to be some work when we went for our photos! We were in the mountains and had to hike uphill a little several times and I was breathing hard!
Yesterday (Tuesday) was supposed to be my workout day with Kellie, but she ended up going to the zoo with her sister & niece & nephew.. I wasn't mad at her whatsoever,but I knew things would come up and I can't count on a workout partner to be there every time. This is why the more workout buddies I have, the better! So I went over my parents house for laundry day - with Ian (yay! he got his work from home day back!)... and I planned to go to the rec center. I was letting my breakfast settle and planning to go work out before I ate lunch. Then it happened... the laziness set in. I started to rationalize in my head all the reasons why I didn't really have to go. In desperation I asked my dad if he would go with me... but he had already exercised in the morning. I even thought to myself "crap, I bet I won't go now. I suck." Then my dad made a comment about going out to run some errands... and I totally jumped on it. I said "Dad will you drop me off at the gym on your way?" Of course I didn't really need him to take me, but I knew it was the only way I was going to get there. He dropped me off and I told him to pick me up 40 mins later.
I spent 30 mins on the arc trainer, fighting the whole time. These workouts are so hard for me now. They used to be easy! That's what I care about, ya know? Not my weight or how I look, but being able to function well, do these workouts... because that means I can do things in the real world like hike, bike, walk, travel... without it being miserable. After the arc trainer I walked around the track 3 times. Not a huge workout, but it was very good for me.
Today I'm working out with Brandy, going for a walk at 2:30. Hopefully I can last an hour again :) If not that's ok too. My calves are sore from yesterday.
My Ian is gone for 3 days :( He's in Arizona on a business trip. He had to leave at 5:30 am today. I couldn't really fall back asleep because it wasn't warm and snuggly in my bed anymore! So that's why I'm blogging early. I hope I can go back to sleep soon. I'm watching the Biggest Loser which for some reason always makes me hungry! Maybe I just know how little calories they eat :) I just saw an arby's commercial and oh how badly I want a roast beef sandwich! At 7 am! LOL. I think I'll go for my leftover omlette instead.
Which brings me to something else I wanted to talk about... LEFTOVERS! I have noticed lately that leftovers - both from restaurants and from stuff made at home - are piling up in the fridge. I may not eat all of them, and that's ok! What this means is that I am actually doing good with Intuitive Eating again, at least when it comes to listening to my fullness. I didn't really think about it but for a long time now I finished almost everything I ever eat... and if I don't, there's only a tiny bit left, not enough to save. So Ian kind of made the point that hey - there's all these little white boxes and tupperware in the fridge! The last 3 days I've been living off of leftovers. It's pretty awesome to think hey, I am eating that much less. And I don't feel remotely like I'm on a diet or I can't eat certain foods. Just watching the portions and stopping when I'm full.
I really want to do some more fun blog entries with pictures and stuff! I hope tomorrow I'll have some time. Today I have to clean things up in the bathroom and empty out the cabinets that we have to move to paint. After my walk with Brandy, my dad's coming over so we can start working on the ceiling & walls in there. I'm hoping this morning I can go shop for the shower curtain and accessories I want, so I can pick out the paint color. Time to start these renovations! If I'm lucky we can get a lot done today and tomorrow so Ian will come home to a brand new bathroom. I'll take before/after pics :)
Hour Walk
Whew. I just got done doing another hour walk with Brandy. I think it was actually an hour and 20 minutes. It kicked my ASS. Today we walked in my neighborhood, and the streets are so slanted. So we'd go downhill one block and turn around and be going uphill the whole next block. Did you know a block feels like FOREVER when it's super uphill? Even the downhill sides started to feel hard after a while because they used totally different muscles. It works out so well walking with her - she is a little slower than her normal self because she has some knee problems... but it's still a good workout for her. Whereas walking with her really speeds me up. I was really pushing myself and it felt great. I would never go that fast and for that long if I were alone.
It's true I am eating some Haagen-Dazs now :) But it is well deserved and it's helping me cool off, too. Sure is nice not feeling guilty to have ice cream. I know dieters are thinking "you're ruining your workout!" But I don't see it that way. It may have calories but it doesn't take away the good work I did for my cardiovascular system and my muscles. Plus it's yummy and makes me happy :) tee hee.
Here's to happiness and health!
It's true I am eating some Haagen-Dazs now :) But it is well deserved and it's helping me cool off, too. Sure is nice not feeling guilty to have ice cream. I know dieters are thinking "you're ruining your workout!" But I don't see it that way. It may have calories but it doesn't take away the good work I did for my cardiovascular system and my muscles. Plus it's yummy and makes me happy :) tee hee.
Here's to happiness and health!
Friday, October 3, 2008
Workout Buddies x2
Well I already planned to work out with my friend Kellie on Tuesdays & Fridays. But I know realistically, it won't always happen. I can go by myself of course, but since I'm just starting to get back into it I really want to try to make "plans" to work out with people because it really helps me stick to it so much better. Once I get in a groove, I can go alone very easily, but still enjoy going with people too. I decided to talk to Ian's friend Brandy about being workout buddies too. (She and her husband Matt have both known Ian a long time, they worked together.) She's a very nice girl, I've been around her several times but just don't know her very well. I do know that she had gastric bypass surgery several years ago. She is actually working hard to maintain her weight loss (so many people don't, and they just gain it back, it seems.) She had another baby a while back and when she stopped breastfeeding she gained 20 pounds, so she wants to lose that weight. She wants to make sure she doesn't ruin all her accomplishments with the surgery!
So I IM'ed her yesterday and asked her about working out. She was so excited that I asked her, because she likes going with a buddy and her husband doesn't like to. So now her and I have plans for Wednesdays and Thursdays! We even went yesterday just a few hours after talking about it - we went to the park and did a ONE HOUR WALK! Whooo hooo!
Walking with her is good - she is more fit/thinner than I am, so she walks a bit faster of course. I pushed myself to keep pace with her. I don't think she was pushing herself much, because she's having trouble right now with her lung capacity. But that worked out well - I was pushing myself, but not beyond my capability. I think we will both speed up as time goes on. I think we went about 3 miles!
We chatted about weight, food, and exercise as we walked and I was THRILLED to discover that she is like-minded to me. No counting calories or watching the scale - just focusing on eating healthfully the majority of the time, not worrying about eating junky food now and then, and focusing on exercise for the purpose of feeling strong and healthy. I am so happy! No offense to anyone out there who weighs regularly or counts calories - I am just way past that working for me anymore. It is damaging to my psyche. And it would be hard for me to work out and chat the whole time with someone who was talking about calories and pounds the whole time. To me that would feel kind of like being a recovering alcoholic and barhopping with a friend who is drinking. It would just be too easy for me to think "maybe I should pull out the scale and just check... so I know if I'm making progress...." or to start reverting back to beating myself up for "bad" food choices, which would lead to me binging.
So yeah, this is awesome. Even when I work out with Kellie it will be fine because she and I just talk about OTHER stuff. She is counting the pounds she loses, and I'm happy for her! But it's just not for me.
So, now I have plans for 4 days a week of exercise. And I'm hoping that if one of them can't make it, I will still go :) Plus, once my dad finishes physical therapy in November, he'll be joining the gym again because he'll need to keep up withhis 3 days a week x 1 hour of exercise. So I would hopefully be able to recruit him if someone else bails, and maybe even go with him an additional day by then.
OTHER STUFF:
Check out our other blog http://ian-and-christie.com to see the new geocaching page I just put up! I know you guys ask about it a lot :)
I'm off to Kellie's... it's a scrapbooking day! Yay! Plus we're going to work out, too!
So I IM'ed her yesterday and asked her about working out. She was so excited that I asked her, because she likes going with a buddy and her husband doesn't like to. So now her and I have plans for Wednesdays and Thursdays! We even went yesterday just a few hours after talking about it - we went to the park and did a ONE HOUR WALK! Whooo hooo!
Walking with her is good - she is more fit/thinner than I am, so she walks a bit faster of course. I pushed myself to keep pace with her. I don't think she was pushing herself much, because she's having trouble right now with her lung capacity. But that worked out well - I was pushing myself, but not beyond my capability. I think we will both speed up as time goes on. I think we went about 3 miles!
We chatted about weight, food, and exercise as we walked and I was THRILLED to discover that she is like-minded to me. No counting calories or watching the scale - just focusing on eating healthfully the majority of the time, not worrying about eating junky food now and then, and focusing on exercise for the purpose of feeling strong and healthy. I am so happy! No offense to anyone out there who weighs regularly or counts calories - I am just way past that working for me anymore. It is damaging to my psyche. And it would be hard for me to work out and chat the whole time with someone who was talking about calories and pounds the whole time. To me that would feel kind of like being a recovering alcoholic and barhopping with a friend who is drinking. It would just be too easy for me to think "maybe I should pull out the scale and just check... so I know if I'm making progress...." or to start reverting back to beating myself up for "bad" food choices, which would lead to me binging.
So yeah, this is awesome. Even when I work out with Kellie it will be fine because she and I just talk about OTHER stuff. She is counting the pounds she loses, and I'm happy for her! But it's just not for me.
So, now I have plans for 4 days a week of exercise. And I'm hoping that if one of them can't make it, I will still go :) Plus, once my dad finishes physical therapy in November, he'll be joining the gym again because he'll need to keep up withhis 3 days a week x 1 hour of exercise. So I would hopefully be able to recruit him if someone else bails, and maybe even go with him an additional day by then.
OTHER STUFF:
Check out our other blog http://ian-and-christie.com to see the new geocaching page I just put up! I know you guys ask about it a lot :)
I'm off to Kellie's... it's a scrapbooking day! Yay! Plus we're going to work out, too!
Thursday, October 2, 2008
OMG I Went to the Gym (Edit: And A Note on Quality of Life)
I haven't been to the gym for an actual gym workout in... I don't know how long. A year? I've done things at home, gone for walks, and even done water aerobics... but that whole "me & the machine" vibe hasn't been part of my life for a long time. Yesterday I remembered why I love it... and also why I hate it. LOL. I did just 30 minutes on a "true stride", which is like an elliptical but better. It was hard. Really hard. I was exhausted... but that could have something to do with having only eaten a bagel all day by 4 pm. I just didn't have an appetite.
On the upside, I'm not even sore today even though my legs were SO fatigued afterwards yesterday. Also it was fun being able to watch a movie on my ipod while working out. Made me want to work out for an hour and a half! I just couldn't yet since I'm just starting out.
Right now I am planning to get punch passes to 3 gyms. I still want to be able to go to the swim place by my house when I feel like swimming, because they have the biggest pool. I haven't checked out the westminster center yet but it's where I go outdoor walking anyway, and I bet it's nice - it looks like a huge place. Then the one by my parents house - which is where I went yesterday - seems to have the best workout machines. So I really don't want to commit to a membership anywhere - I want to have my choice of where I feel like going! And of course this time of year it's finally cooling off and I've got a couple months to do stuff outside before it gets too cold.
My friend Kellie is working out too - she has lost 18 pounds in 6 weeks and I'm so proud of her. Unfortunately she doesn't give herself ANY credit because she thinks she could be trying a lot harder. Anyway it's in both our best interests to work out together when we can. Tomorrow is my scrapbooking day with her and we're going to work out first! Yeah!
At least right now I have no plans to weigh myself or worry at all about how much weight I lose from exercising. I just want to feel better. I'll know when my clothes get looser and I can fit into my other jeans :) Someday I might weigh myself, but I prefer not to. Just look at my friend who isn't happy with having lost an average of 3 pounds a week for the last 6 weeks. I do not want to put myself through those mind games. All I care about is sticking to an exercise routine that will make me FEEL good about myself. And of course, pay more attention to what I eat. Haven't done well with that lately. I've been stuffing myself too much again. Gotta work on that.
Update:
A very well-meaning comment was left by my friend Christine and this is in no way meant as anything against her, but I wanted to share her comment here and my response to it.
Her:
I agree about avoiding the scale, it can be depressing. It's a good way to gauge your weight loss though. Maybe grin and bear it, write it down, then stay off the scale for another month? Oh, and don't forget to measure! I was feeling sorta down about my weight loss lately till I measured myself and my chest was 2 inches smaller! No complaints from me!! :)
I'm bad about using my clothes as a measurement since I only wear one size: Big and Baggy!
Go for it!
Me:
Well honestly since reading intuitive eating I don't really have a desire to "measure" my weight loss in any way. When I said that about my clothes I just meant that'll be a clue, it's not like a goal or anything. All I care about is feeling healthy and strong. Honestly.
No scale for me, no measuring... not measuring myself with my clothes either. I just don't care! All I care about is less pain, being able to walk a lot, go hiking, do the things I love to do and be happy. No more torturing myself over my weight or my size, I'm done with that!
I just felt the need to share this because I want it to be clear that weight loss is my goal but the amount does not matter to me. The reason for losing it is for my spine, my joints - less pain - more ability to do the things I love. Because I know at this weight I'm not happy because I am in pain and I'm restricted. But the number is irrelevant and I don't have a number related goal, and I never will again. I'm done with all of that and the pain and self-destruction it causes.
When we travel I want to be able to walk all day and see the sights - sure I'll be tired after like anyone else - but I don't want to be miserable after 3 hours of walking around. I want to enjoy the travel. I also want to go hiking and enjoy the mountains here. Especially with the high altitude (when we hike we're at about 9,000-11,000 ft), the heart has a hard time!! I want to be in better cardiovascular shape so I don't get so out of breath -again with the goal of enjoying myself.
What I am doing here, is trying to improve my quality of life. If that happens and I'm 270 pounds, fine. If I'm 240 lbs, fine. Less, great. But the best would be not knowing the pounds and not caring. THAT is quality of life.
On the upside, I'm not even sore today even though my legs were SO fatigued afterwards yesterday. Also it was fun being able to watch a movie on my ipod while working out. Made me want to work out for an hour and a half! I just couldn't yet since I'm just starting out.
Right now I am planning to get punch passes to 3 gyms. I still want to be able to go to the swim place by my house when I feel like swimming, because they have the biggest pool. I haven't checked out the westminster center yet but it's where I go outdoor walking anyway, and I bet it's nice - it looks like a huge place. Then the one by my parents house - which is where I went yesterday - seems to have the best workout machines. So I really don't want to commit to a membership anywhere - I want to have my choice of where I feel like going! And of course this time of year it's finally cooling off and I've got a couple months to do stuff outside before it gets too cold.
My friend Kellie is working out too - she has lost 18 pounds in 6 weeks and I'm so proud of her. Unfortunately she doesn't give herself ANY credit because she thinks she could be trying a lot harder. Anyway it's in both our best interests to work out together when we can. Tomorrow is my scrapbooking day with her and we're going to work out first! Yeah!
At least right now I have no plans to weigh myself or worry at all about how much weight I lose from exercising. I just want to feel better. I'll know when my clothes get looser and I can fit into my other jeans :) Someday I might weigh myself, but I prefer not to. Just look at my friend who isn't happy with having lost an average of 3 pounds a week for the last 6 weeks. I do not want to put myself through those mind games. All I care about is sticking to an exercise routine that will make me FEEL good about myself. And of course, pay more attention to what I eat. Haven't done well with that lately. I've been stuffing myself too much again. Gotta work on that.
Update:
A very well-meaning comment was left by my friend Christine and this is in no way meant as anything against her, but I wanted to share her comment here and my response to it.
Her:
I agree about avoiding the scale, it can be depressing. It's a good way to gauge your weight loss though. Maybe grin and bear it, write it down, then stay off the scale for another month? Oh, and don't forget to measure! I was feeling sorta down about my weight loss lately till I measured myself and my chest was 2 inches smaller! No complaints from me!! :)
I'm bad about using my clothes as a measurement since I only wear one size: Big and Baggy!
Go for it!
Me:
Well honestly since reading intuitive eating I don't really have a desire to "measure" my weight loss in any way. When I said that about my clothes I just meant that'll be a clue, it's not like a goal or anything. All I care about is feeling healthy and strong. Honestly.
No scale for me, no measuring... not measuring myself with my clothes either. I just don't care! All I care about is less pain, being able to walk a lot, go hiking, do the things I love to do and be happy. No more torturing myself over my weight or my size, I'm done with that!
I just felt the need to share this because I want it to be clear that weight loss is my goal but the amount does not matter to me. The reason for losing it is for my spine, my joints - less pain - more ability to do the things I love. Because I know at this weight I'm not happy because I am in pain and I'm restricted. But the number is irrelevant and I don't have a number related goal, and I never will again. I'm done with all of that and the pain and self-destruction it causes.
When we travel I want to be able to walk all day and see the sights - sure I'll be tired after like anyone else - but I don't want to be miserable after 3 hours of walking around. I want to enjoy the travel. I also want to go hiking and enjoy the mountains here. Especially with the high altitude (when we hike we're at about 9,000-11,000 ft), the heart has a hard time!! I want to be in better cardiovascular shape so I don't get so out of breath -again with the goal of enjoying myself.
What I am doing here, is trying to improve my quality of life. If that happens and I'm 270 pounds, fine. If I'm 240 lbs, fine. Less, great. But the best would be not knowing the pounds and not caring. THAT is quality of life.
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