Sunday, May 2, 2010

Going Public & Filling in the Gaps

Hey everybody! I wanted to let you know that this blog is going public. Now that I've made the decision to go forward with weight loss surgery, I'm interested in starting to become a part of that blog community, as well as any health/fitness stuff in general. I'm planning to start posting here a lot more frequently as I go through this process.

As a side note for those of you who have been following me while this blog was private - I deleted a few posts and edited others for personal content. I kept copies of them and your comments for myself, just so you know :)

My videos will still have to remain password protected even though this blog will be public. That is because I use my Vimeo account for a lot of public videos too and someone could be looking at one of those and then come across my weight-related videos, and that just isn't something I feel comfortable with. I know this could be found by people but I just think this makes sense to avoid it when possible :)

I would also like to take this opportunity to fill in the gaps. I realize when looking through my posts here that the information has been a little sparse as to what has actually been going on in my life. I focused on talking about my therapy sessions but I really didn't talk that much about the pain I've been going through and the way things have changed. I talked about some of this in my video but for those who don't watch them here is a summary.

Some of you know through Facebook that I have been seeing a chiropractor for a while now. I had horrible "hip" pain bothering me for months... turns out it was being caused by my lower back. My upper back also started to get very tight. My ability to sit became almost nothing. I had to pretty much give up completely on doing school work... as well as my hobbies that are on the computer such as blogging and digital scrapbooking. My life was getting taken away from me!

I had do do something about it. "Dr Kate" knew of a really good chiropractor and I started seeing him. He first only treated my upper back because I didn't know that I also had lower back problems. A few nerve block treatments and my upper back pain was basically GONE. But my hip pain hadn't gotten any better at all.

I went back to my regular doc, and got new Xrays taken that revealed my lower back problems. (This is also when my doc brought up that I should consider weight loss surgery.) I promptly began treatments for my lower back also at the chiropractor. It is much more slow-going... but the decompression treatments are really helping!

So here is where I am at right now....

  • Still going to the chiropractor. It's helping a lot but is slow going.
  • I'm doing well enough now I could start school back up again, but at this point will wait until after surgery so that it is not interrupted again.
  • Ian is going to have surgery too and our consult with the surgeon will be on May 12th.
  • Because we will be self pay, it's possible I may get a surgery date about 3 weeks after this consult!
  • We're trying to get all the appointments out of the way that we can - doctor appointments, blood work, psych evaluations, pulmonary testing, sleep study, etc... the sooner we get all that done, the sooner we can have surgery.
  • We are starting to prepare for what life will be life after surgery. We've researched protein powders, vitamins, diet/menu plans, read a lot of information. I've been watching a ton of YouTube "Vlogs" (Video Blogs) from people who have had the Sleeve surgery that we are going to have, getting an idea of the aftermath of surgery, the adjustments to lifestyle, etc. Also joined some message boards for this surgery and learning a lot there, too.
  • We have filled out an absolute mountain of forms, and have all of our paperwork organized.
  • We are starting to say things like "when we are thinner we can..." and starting to plan a more active life for ourselves... think about fitting in clothes better... having more energy, etc. It's been a long time since I've allowed myself to think this way, for fear of it never happening. We are both seeing that this is really going to happen and starting to believe again.
  • Our friends and family members are VERY supportive of the surgery and that has been really helpful.
I guess that's about it for now... oh! Except one thing I am not sure if I mentioned - I am still planning on maintaining my therapy sessions with Dr. Kate ... this is not taking the place of that. If anything I think it is a perfect combo - I will have the help of the surgery as a tool, but keep working on my emotional eating issues and proper nutrition/ intuitive eating with the help of Dr. Kate. I won't need her for the first several weeks after surgery quite as much because I won't be eating much (first liquids, then mushies, etc.)... but will probably have 30 min phone sessions each week during that time to check in about emotional issues that may crop up (such as mourning eating bad food/pigging out, or whatever it might be.)

So for now, mostly waiting for the surgery consult on May 12th. At that point we can ask a lot of questions and know a lot more about what's in store... and when :)

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Decisions Made

A new video update for you! Password: healthupdate


Sorry it's kind of LONG!! I don't know what they added up to in the 3 videos last time... this one is 18 minutes. Oops.

Related Info...


Denver Bariatrics (where I plan to have my surgery)

Vertical Sleeve Talk (forums where I've been learning a lot)


A couple of points...

  •  Unlike gastric banding surgeries, no foreign objects are left in the body during the procedure. With gastric banding, the band may slip, erode or become infected.

  • Unlike gastric bypass or duodenal switch, there is no bypass of the small intestines with the gastric sleeve, so all nutrients are absorbed and very little chance exists of malabsorption issues.

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

VIDEO Updates!

I started writing a huge post a couple of weeks ago, but with  my limited ability to sit lately, I haven't managed to finish it. Today I decided to do some 'vlogging' (video blogging) so I could catch everybody up on recent events. I divided it into 3 parts.

The videos are password protected, so you will have to enter the password to view them. The password is "healthupdate" without the quotes. Same password for all 3. Enjoy, and I look forward to your feedback. :) The video chooses a random middle point as the still frame for the video preview... love how I am making a stupid face in all of them. LOL.

PART 1:

Health Video Update #1 from Christie Stearns on Vimeo.


PART 2:

Health Video Update #2 from Christie Stearns on Vimeo.


PART 3:

Health Video Update #3 from Christie Stearns on Vimeo.

Sunday, March 14, 2010

OOOps.... Hi

Sorry guys, I don't get email notifications for the comments left here (need to fix that) and so I just forgot all about the poor blog.

A) I have been so freaking busy. Between school, actually working on the things I do in therapy like workouts, food, cooking, etc... trying to build up my future business related to digital scrapbooking...and personal stuff I have going on (aunt and grandma living here now who want to spend time with me, helping ian's family with things, etc) I just don't have time for this blog right now. I am barely keeping up with my other blogs and honestly I want to do those more than I want to do this one.

B) I don't feel like I have that much to write about in this area these days. I am doing great with therapy and working toward my goals... but it's a slow process. A lot of weeks I'm just working on the same stuff again and not that much new to report. Yes I could log every workout, recipe I make, food decision, therapy related thought... but I guess I'm just not 'feeling it' right now.

C) Workouts are all over the place. Firstly, I was sick for 10 days. Then I had fantastic exercise 3 out of the next 4 days. Then my hip pain flared up again and had me nearly immobile for 5 days. It was just as sucky as when I was sick, because the pain kept me off the computer most of the time since sitting up hurt.  BORING. Anyway it is SOME better now, still bothering me but I had a great walk Friday and geocaching/walking yesterday, and i plan to try out the gym again tomorrow. I STILL LOVE MY GYM, by the way :) I just need this hip to leave me alone! Sometimes I can work through the hip pain and certain things at the gym make it feel better... but when it gets bad enough, I can't even hardly walk around.

So, I guess right now, I won't be blogging here much. That might change, depending on when I have something to say. But since I am not "dieting" or doing the "typical" stuff, this is a slow going and not always interesting endeavor... LOL! Sorry... that's just how it is for right now.

Thursday, February 4, 2010

Out with the Old, in with the New (Balance)

My New Balance sneakers have treated me well.
I've been wearing these since just before the wedding. I guess somewhere between wearing them AT my wedding, on my entire honeymoon, through many home improvement projects and selling our house, moving, trapsing through the red dirt in Utah, daily wear and workouts.... well... they've had it!!

OLD New Balance meet... NEW New Balance.

Out With the Old, In with the New

Out With the Old, In with the New

I can't believe they used to look sooooo white and clean and new! Yes I got the exact same pair because with my orthotics and my wide feet, this is pretty much THE pair of sneakers for me right now. Wish I had more choices but sadly, I do not.

I will keep the old pair around as work shoes, so I hope they can get along :)

Out With the Old, In with the New

Out With the Old, In with the New


Just for fun and nostalgia, here I am wearing them at my wedding, when they WERE all shiny and new:

Showing Off My Sneakers

Monday, February 1, 2010

Loving the Gym

FINALLY got to go back to my new gym today. I had Stacey in town and then this week was crazy catching up and I've felt SO EXHAUSTED. Finally getting back to my old self now. Anyway today I went to the gym and had a great workout. I DIDN'T EVEN USE MY IPOD! The music and music videos there are pretty entertaining on their own. I am really enjoying doing stretching and hand weights after my cardio. It feels soooo good. My goal for this week is to go M-W-F and then we'll see if I can do more next week.

I just looked over my goals and I feel great because everything is ON TRACK! After a pretty blah week last week where I didn't feel very accomplished, it is good to be feeling much better now :)

Dr Kate really helped encourage me when I was feeling down last week and she got me totally back on the wagon. She is pretty amazing!

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Goals Update

My goal setting session with Dr. Kate was a really cool experience. I guess I went into it like "goal setting, yeah I've done this before, I know what this is about" but it really was a different experience with her and I have to say, I really liked it!

The first hour was a regular session, talking about my week and everything. I had brought along my newly printed scrapbook pages so she could see some in person. Since she is so supportive and encouraging of my hobby and of me making more time for it, I thought she'd like to see the end result. I told her not to feel like she had to look through them all, that I just wanted her to get the idea. Well she ended up looking through all of them and she loved them and kept saying "I totally get this now! I get what it's all about." It just made me feel really good.

I also told her I was ready to start incorporating regular exercise and I was going to be looking at gyms to figure out which gym had everything I wanted. I ended up choosing Lifetime Fitness, and I'll do a separate post all about that :)

So now onto the goals!

I brought the list I had made, which I shared in my last post. She also had worksheets ready for me to lead me through the goal setting.

Surprisingly, the first step was to reflect on LAST YEAR. Why have I never thought of doing that before? She led me through a visualization of being in my own private movie theater and watching the past year of my life on the screen. It sounds cheesy but it was actually really easy to visualize, and led me to some new realizations! During it she asked me these questions and when I was done I wrote down the answers.


What were your top three successes last year?
1. Wedding planning and maintaining relationships through it / not fighting or being bridezilla :)
2. Prepping and selling our house
3. Facing my problems and choosing to start therapy

What were your top three challenges?
1. Erradicating bad friendships from my life
2. Figuring out who I am and how I fit with my husband
3. Prepping the house for sale and moving

What helped you to overcome these challenges?
The close people in my life - Ian, Sarah, my parents... they were there for me and helped me through these things.


What is the primary message or lesson from your past year's experiences?
This was the most surprising part. When she asked me this I actually SAW the words "trust me" come across the "movie screen"... it was incredible. Something buried in my subconscious that I wasn't aware of. I get the feeling the trust me implied two things - trust myself more, that I know what's best for myself and how to make decisions, and trust my friends and family more, that they will be there for me, help me through things, and still be there no matter what decision I make. They will support me.
So "TRUST" is my word for this year!

Now it was time for the next visualization... back in the movie theater, directing and starring in my own movie of what I want this year to be, and I can make it be whatever I want.


Describe the movie in as much detail as possible, as if it is REAL NOW. This is what I see...
I see myself healthier, thinner, with a smile always on my face. I'm less stressed because I know how to balance my needs and my responsibilities. I am happy with my husband and love is increasing even more as we spend more time together at more activities. I strive to reach my career goals and I'm successful at them and am able to contribute financially to my relationship again.


Now break your vision down into specific areas:

HEALTH/BEAUTY
exercising regularly, eating more healthfully, cooking more
massages, mani/pedis, self care

WEALTH/CAREER
finish school, start businesses, contribute financially

FAMILY/FRIENDS
trust them, spend time with them, keep up long distance friendships
keep improving communication & togetherness with my husband

TRAVEL/FUN
fun weekend activities with husband, get out more
keep taking pics and scrapbooking
take trips back to chicago
plan trips with hubby


NEXT STEP was to break all of these goals down into yearly goals, then determining what is at 6 months, monthly, weekly, daily from that point. Then I would reevaluate weekly goals each week, monthly goals each month, etc throughout the year!

ONE YEAR GOALS:
- Daily exercise
- Mostly whole foods, little processed
- School is done
- Doing web design
- Activities out w/ husband 2 weekends per month
- Two trips to Chicago
- Go on scrapbooking retreat

SIX MONTH GOALS (July):
- Daily exercise
- Adding more whole foods
- Improving cooking skills
- Final stretch with school
- Researching job opportunitis
- 2x per month activities with husband
- trips are completed

ONE MONTH GOALS:
- join gym
- fix wii acessories (for wii fit)
- 3x per week exercise
- only one night eating out each week
- continue with school schedule
- one weekend out with hubby
- get trips scheduled
- get massage, have ian get one too
- manicure

WEEKLY GOALS:
- join gym
- 3 days of exercise
- cook, keep groceries stocked
- catch up on school
- plan a weekend with ian for sometime soon
- schedule my trips

DAILY GOALS:
- school
- preparing foods
- is it an exercise day?


How am I doing so far?
I'm happy to report that as I type this and it's been about 5 days since setting these goals, I am right on tack!! On the daily level I've been doing school, making dinners at home except for one dinner out, and exercising. On the weekly level, I've already joined the gym, grocery shopped and am going again today, and scheduled one of my trips (and very close to scheduling the other.) Also a long talk with my best friend so that goes toward maintaining long distance friendships. My other friend is visiting me this weekend too :)

So I am planning use this blog when I want to sit down and reevaluate my weekly or monthly goals!
I have a phone session with Dr. Kate tomorrow and will be happy to give her this good report :)
I'll be back soon with a gym update, but if I don't get to it tomorrow it won't be til next week since my friend is visiting me Friday - Tuesday.